As it turns out I am my favorite, however if there was one thing that I could change about myself, it would be my struggle with maintaining a healthy weight. Weight has been a struggle for me since adolescence.

I remember when I was in the first year of college, I was falling in love with my now husband and I was determined to look my best for him, that was when I, for the first time in my life actually did something to loose weight and I ended up being the thinnest I had been in my life. At my thinnest, I weighed 64 kgs (thats about 141 lbs). How did I do it? Well, I literally starved myself like I would only eat one apple in a whole day. I know it was the worst thing to do ever but back then, it was the most logical thing to do for a desperate 18 year old.

I have been trying to think and remember how I felt when I had lost all that weight and all I remember is everyone telling me how much better I looked and all my friends hoping they could all be as determined as I was. It did boost my confidence and flattered my ego. But somehow I do not remember how I felt in terms of energy level or anything related to skin or hair issues as a result of starvation, or any hormonal changes like mood swings. I did happen to find a few photos of me from then and I personally think that I looked pale and my skin looks darker than usual.

Anyway, so from there I only put the weight all back on. By the time we got married about 5 years later I weighted 74 kgs(about 163 lbs). After 3 years of being married, when we were trying to get pregnant, I weighed 84 kgs(about 185 lbs) and I can only say that thankfully, the rate of weight gain has not been so steep ever since.

In these years, I have tried so many things and have finally realized that nothing works on a long term basis except lifestyle changes that you can keep on forever.